To Someone: Pretend
I have to admit. I hate him. I hate him for what he did. But I never really show it.
On a forum thread in candymag.com, there was a thread entitled Unsaid Feelings: Post to ease. I just had to post. I let it all out. Here's what I wrote.
To Someone Whom I Once Loved:
Let's just pretend. Let's pretend that we're fine. Let's pretend that we're alright.
Aren't we pretending right now?
I try not to get mad but the very thought of your name, agitates me. I try to pretend that we're ok, but in truth we're not. I try not to be angry but I get thoughts of hatred right away. I try not to hate you but I despise you. I try to smile but it hides a thousand tears. I try to be strong but your presence makes me shiver. I try to forget you but somehow you still linger in my mind. I try to forgive you but you've deeply scarred me. I've tried everything. Ok, let's pretend. I know you do the same. Go to that girl whom you say you love now. And soon, tell her lies you told me. And let's all pretend in your messed-up world. Go ahead. I'm encouraging you to hurt her too. So that she'll feel the pain I'm going through. But once you've realized you've done wrong, don't come crying to me. Cause I'll only PRETEND to care.
Just something I thought about. Gee, I was really mad at that time. G
