A Conversation
WARNING: A VERY LONG POST. I'm quite surprised some people actually took time to read this one. Thanks! :]
A YM conversation of me and a friend. Not really a friend...
Background info: he's not really my friend, he got my YM address by my TeenTalk account. His girlfriend goes to my former school. Coincidentally, he happened to searched my old school through the net. He found my school's forum page on TeenTalk and asked for the schedule there every friday. Nobody replied to his message so he took my YM address and asked me when I got online. So I was friendly and everything, I offered to help him. But there was more to his story. Since the actual conversation was suuuper long I took the liberty of shortening it and retained the important dialogues. And about the priests part, pardon my language. I know it was rude but I just had to say it.
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Angelica Sison: stalker ka ng sarili mong girlfriend
ii13 illusion13: di naman
ii13 illusion13: may gusto lang ako malaman.
Angelica Sison: sus
ii13 illusion13: wla naman dng stalk sa mag bf/gf ah?
Angelica Sison: ha?
ii13 illusion13: sbe mo kse stalker. eh nag-aapply lang naman un kpag masyado kang obsessed sa tao na di mo kaano-ano
Angelica Sison: nope
ii13 illusion13: pwde din sa friend
ii13 illusion13: pero pag may something sa inyo? no.
Angelica Sison: stalker meaning an obssesed lunatic who wants every information about a particular person, related or not
ii13 illusion13: edi madami palang stalker na in a relationship.
Angelica Sison: obssesed lunatic
Angelica Sison: thats different
ii13 illusion13: un ba meaning ng stalker?
Angelica Sison: yea
ii13 illusion13: eto daw meaning oh.
ii13 illusion13: intransitive verb
1 : to pursue quarry or prey stealthily
ii13 illusion13: transitive verb
1 : to pursue by stalking
2 : to go through (an area) in search of prey or quarry
3 : to pursue obsessively and to the point of harassment
Angelica Sison: whatevs
Angelica Sison: hinanap mo pa yan sa internet
Angelica Sison: haha
ii13 illusion13: wla naman akong nakitang lunacy dyan?
ii13 illusion13: ahaha
Angelica Sison: lame
ii13 illusion13:
ii13 illusion13: eto thorough meaning oh. http://www.esia.net/Common_Traits_of_Stalkers.htm
Angelica Sison: pati ba naman yan?
ii13 illusion13: mdali lang naman hanapin eh. wla pang 1min. wla din naman ako gngwa
Angelica Sison: dude, it was a figure of speech
Angelica Sison: dont explain it any further
Angelica Sison: take it from me
ii13 illusion13: awww. di naman kse gnun.
Angelica Sison: i dont like it when people pretend to be smart
Angelica Sison: makes them look dumb
Angelica Sison: no offense
ii13 illusion13: di ko din gs2 ng gnun
Angelica Sison: why'd you do it?
ii13 illusion13: nagiging 'literal' lang ako.
ii13 illusion13: kasi ngayon ko lang nalaman na apllicable pala un pati sa mga relationships
Angelica Sison: yea sure
Angelica Sison:
ii13 illusion13: cguro di ka pa npapasok sa mga ganung relationships. kaya di mo alam na normal un
Angelica Sison: hah
Angelica Sison: thats where youre wrong dude
ii13 illusion13: bakit? di mo ba chncheck bf mo?
Angelica Sison: yeah sure but not to the extent that i go search the net for him
Angelica Sison: my site's down so i cant show yah something
ii13 illusion13: snearch ko ba net para sa kanya?
Angelica Sison: yea
ii13 illusion13: erhm. para sakin.
Angelica Sison: how else did you get to me?
Angelica Sison: S T A L K E R
Angelica Sison: you know what
Angelica Sison: you should trust her
ii13 illusion13: un nga eh. para mlaman lang shed
ii13 illusion13: awww.
ii13 illusion13: hassle
ii13 illusion13: hndi ako nagbibigay ng trust ng ganun kdali
Angelica Sison: hassle ba magtrust sa kanya?
ii13 illusion13: oo
Angelica Sison: then end the relationship
Angelica Sison: period
ii13 illusion13: may mga makukuha pa kong benefits habang tumatagal eh
ii13 illusion13: kaya ko cia chncheck, para malaman kong secured lang cia sakin at the same time kumikita ako ng pera
Angelica Sison: ?
Angelica Sison: what the?
ii13 illusion13: di mo kse alam story.
ii13 illusion13: cge. kwento ko narin
Angelica Sison: yea sure
ii13 illusion13: business
ii13 illusion13: may hati kami
Angelica Sison: ...?
ii13 illusion13: masmalaki hati ko
ii13 illusion13: weed
Angelica Sison: anong business?
ii13 illusion13: weed. hanggan dun lng ssbhn ko
Angelica Sison: tse
ii13 illusion13: kaya ko inaalam sched nia, umaayaw na kse cia
Angelica Sison: ayoko na
ii13 illusion13: eh kelangan ko cia kse parang partner
ii13 illusion13: but for her akala nia love
Angelica Sison: tama na
Angelica Sison: end na
ii13 illusion13: okay
Angelica Sison: ok?
Angelica Sison: you're definitely screwed
ii13 illusion13: ahaha
Angelica Sison: advice: get a life instead of doing that kinda "business"
ii13 illusion13: naging part na ko nun
Angelica Sison: yea sure
Angelica Sison: whatevs
ii13 illusion13: pera lang naman nagpapatakbo sa mundo eh
Angelica Sison: hah
Angelica Sison: idiocy
ii13 illusion13: totoo naman dba? tigan mo..
ii13 illusion13: kung wlang pera. ano ang tao?
Angelica Sison: say all you want
Angelica Sison: thats the kinda person who doesnt have a philisophy in life
Angelica Sison: you've been manipulated by life's circumstances
Angelica Sison: pera?
Angelica Sison: sus
ii13 illusion13: yeah. kung ganun man, ok lang un
Angelica Sison: there are more things
Angelica Sison: more important
Angelica Sison: more valuable
ii13 illusion13: katulad ng?
Angelica Sison: love
ii13 illusion13: love
ii13 illusion13: kalokohan
Angelica Sison: life itself
Angelica Sison: God
Angelica Sison: thats what my drunk uncle wouldve said
ii13 illusion13: life
ii13 illusion13: kalokohan dn
Angelica Sison: you're the same
ii13 illusion13: God oo
Angelica Sison: living a wasted life
ii13 illusion13: wasted life? para sayo wasted.
Angelica Sison: and blinded by evil
Angelica Sison: if God as you say is important
Angelica Sison: why are you doing that?
ii13 illusion13: bakit? naniniwala ka ba dun?
ii13 illusion13: sa God?
Angelica Sison: in God yes
ii13 illusion13: oo may God. pero tayo nagccontrol satin
Angelica Sison: thats the miracle of it
Angelica Sison: dont you see?
Angelica Sison: God gave us free will
Angelica Sison: thats what you choose
ii13 illusion13: alam mo ba kung sino nagsbe na si God nag bigay ng free will?
ii13 illusion13: mga pari.
Angelica Sison: no
Angelica Sison: He did
ii13 illusion13: sino si God?
Angelica Sison: God did
Angelica Sison: sino si God
ii13 illusion13: proof?
Angelica Sison: You need proof?
ii13 illusion13: 50% nga ng bible gawa gawa lng ng pari eh
Angelica Sison: look around you, arent these creations of God?
ii13 illusion13: muka pa ni jesus. hndi totoo
ii13 illusion13: evolution
Angelica Sison: i have to tell you, priests are hypocrites
Angelica Sison: but i'm not Catholic so thats ok
ii13 illusion13: atheist ka ba?
Angelica Sison: no
ii13 illusion13: born?
Angelica Sison: yes
ii13 illusion13: ahh
ii13 illusion13: kaya pala
Angelica Sison: born again ako
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: proud of it too
ii13 illusion13: may friend din ako na born, gnian din cia
Angelica Sison: coz I pretty explain well what bull priests are doing
Angelica Sison: pardon my expression
ii13 illusion13: alam mo ba
Angelica Sison: but uts true
Angelica Sison: its*
ii13 illusion13: para sakin
Angelica Sison: go aheafd
Angelica Sison: ahead*
ii13 illusion13: mdaming bornagain, unloyal at traydor
ii13 illusion13:
ii13 illusion13: no offense ah
ii13 illusion13: sa mga nakilala ko
Angelica Sison: alam ko yun
Angelica Sison: aware na aware ako
Angelica Sison: pero alam mo
Angelica Sison: marami ring loyal
Angelica Sison: should we just focus on the negative side?
Angelica Sison: NO
ii13 illusion13: change topic. ayko pagusapan to
Angelica Sison: why not?
ii13 illusion13: basta
Angelica Sison: afriad I'll test your faith?
ii13 illusion13: hndi
Angelica Sison: your principles and beliefs?
ii13 illusion13: may naaalala lang
Angelica Sison: why not talk about God when you can freely talk about weed?
Angelica Sison: why not?
ii13 illusion13: talk about God, cge.
ii13 illusion13: wag lang bornagain
Angelica Sison: sure
Angelica Sison: born again nga ako
Angelica Sison: spiritual ako
Angelica Sison: pero RATIONAL din ako\
ii13 illusion13: okay.
ii13 illusion13: naniniwala ka ba tlga sa love
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: of course
Angelica Sison: God created love, He is love Himself
Angelica Sison: aside from that
ii13 illusion13: then i hate him.
Angelica Sison: go ahead
Angelica Sison: hate Him
Angelica Sison: hate love
Angelica Sison: thats you
ii13 illusion13: masama mag love
Angelica Sison: why is that so?
ii13 illusion13: problems.
Angelica Sison: like?
ii13 illusion13: pag magmamahal ka, cgurado masasaktan ka
ii13 illusion13: mammroblema ka
Angelica Sison: are you sure?
ii13 illusion13: wlang kwenta din
ii13 illusion13: oo
ii13 illusion13: sobrang sure
Angelica Sison: sobra?
ii13 illusion13: kaya masmaganda magmahal ng mga bagay kesa sa mga pwde manakit
ii13 illusion13: hndi ka ttraydurin
Angelica Sison: is it love itself or is it you whose hurting yourself?
ii13 illusion13: love
Angelica Sison: no
Angelica Sison: its you
ii13 illusion13: kasi nagbibigay cia ng feeling
ii13 illusion13: para masaktan
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: you gave this kinda perspective
Angelica Sison: not love
ii13 illusion13: pero most people gnun tingin
Angelica Sison: haha
ii13 illusion13: kaya nga may mga emo dba? 'di ako emo a'
Angelica Sison: they're blind and they say that love is blind
Angelica Sison: pft
Angelica Sison: sus
Angelica Sison: napunta sa emo
Angelica Sison: do you even know real emo?
Angelica Sison: geez
ii13 illusion13: no. hndi naman ako gnun, kaya pno ko mlalaman
Angelica Sison: haha
Angelica Sison: so dont define emo
ii13 illusion13: ung impression ko lang sa kanila
Angelica Sison: dont define love
ii13 illusion13:
ii13 illusion13: katulad ng ibang tao, ganun ung tingin sa mga emo. kasi un ung impression na pinapakita nila samen.
Angelica Sison: they're not emo
Angelica Sison: they're just "scene"
Angelica Sison: sunod sa uso para namang mga ulol
ii13 illusion13: onga
Angelica Sison: real emo is totally different
Angelica Sison: so
ii13 illusion13: pero eto, di mo ba alam na most ng patient sa mental hospital dahil sa love problem?
Angelica Sison: back sa topic
Angelica Sison: yeah
Angelica Sison: so it is
ii13 illusion13: love lahat may gawa
ii13 illusion13: masama at mabait
Angelica Sison: then?
ii13 illusion13: kaya hassle magmahal
Angelica Sison: whats your point?
ii13 illusion13: kung ayaw mo msaktan. wag ka na magmahal.
Angelica Sison: you make no point at all
ii13 illusion13: ienjoy mo nalang buhay mo in other things.
ii13 illusion13: pnpnoit mo kse na hndi masama ung love
Angelica Sison: sure, enjoy your life on other things
Angelica Sison: but that is love
Angelica Sison: love in general
Angelica Sison: not the relationships kind
ii13 illusion13: kahit in general
ii13 illusion13: kunwari sa dad mo
Angelica Sison: then?
ii13 illusion13: love mo dad mo
Angelica Sison: sure
ii13 illusion13: kahit dun lang, pwde ka na masaktan
ii13 illusion13: kahit sa friends. pwde na msaktan
Angelica Sison: your point once again?
ii13 illusion13: Angelica Sison: but that is love
Angelica Sison: love in general
ii13 illusion13: cnasabi mo na mbait parin
Angelica Sison: haha
Angelica Sison: hindi ko sinabi na mabait
Angelica Sison: kahit ireview mo pa yung pingauusapan natin
ii13 illusion13: hndi nga mabait.
Angelica Sison: so
Angelica Sison: what is mabait for you?
ii13 illusion13: nananakit ung love. cnbe mo na hndi.
Angelica Sison: wala akong sinabi
ii13 illusion13: cnbe mo
Angelica Sison: where?
Angelica Sison: i dont see it
ii13 illusion13: sbe mo tayo nananakit sa sarili natin. not love
ii13 illusion13: basahin mo kaya
Angelica Sison: wala nga ako sinabi na "mabait" siya
Angelica Sison: see?
ii13 illusion13: oo nga. wla ngang mbait
Angelica Sison: then what is mabait for you?
ii13 illusion13: Angelica Sison: haha
Angelica Sison: hindi ko sinabi na mabait
Angelica Sison: kahit ireview mo pa yung pingauusapan natin
ii13: hndi nga mabait.
Angelica Sison: wala diyan
ii13 illusion13: mabait? iba iba meaning ng mabait. tayo lang gumagawa ng meaning nian. kung tingin natin mabait nggwa nung tao, iicpn natin mabait na.
ii13 illusion13: pano kung para sakin mabait na magnakaw?
ii13 illusion13: edi para sakin, nbabaitan ako dun.
Angelica Sison: oh?
ii13 illusion13: IMO
Angelica Sison: matong ko sayo
Angelica Sison: what is the opposite of love?
Angelica Sison: matanong*
ii13 illusion13: hndi hate
Angelica Sison: then?
Angelica Sison: what is?
ii13 illusion13: di ko alam?
Angelica Sison: exactly
ii13 illusion13: kelangan pa ba mlaman yan?
Angelica Sison: thats because you're still unaware of what love is all about
Angelica Sison: kelangan lang
ii13 illusion13: unaware. tsk.
Angelica Sison: yea
Angelica Sison: you are
ii13 illusion13: kung gnun nga. di ko tlga alam kung ano ang love
ii13 illusion13: and di ko na kailangan pa mlaman
ii13 illusion13: kasi para sakin wla ding kwenta un
Angelica Sison: why?
ii13 illusion13: egocentric ako
Angelica Sison: haha
Angelica Sison: exactly
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: you define your life
Angelica Sison: you focus on yourself
Angelica Sison: you love yourself
Angelica Sison: in a bad way
Angelica Sison: you hurt yourself
ii13 illusion13: oo nga.cnasaktan ko sarili ko
Angelica Sison: oh diba?
ii13 illusion13: kaya nga hndi ko love sarili ko eh
Angelica Sison: i am right
Angelica Sison: sure ka?
ii13 illusion13: cnasaktan ko sarili ko dahil sa mga decisions ko
Angelica Sison: uhuh
ii13 illusion13: love mentall emotionally spiritually
ii13 illusion13: pero love ko physically
Angelica Sison: haha
Angelica Sison: that is not love
ii13 illusion13: ii13: kaya nga hndi ko love sarili ko eh
Angelica Sison: i am right
Angelica Sison: sure ka?
ii13 illusion13: yan. ikaw nadn nagsbe na hndi love un.
ii13 illusion13: Angelica Sison: that is not love
Angelica Sison: because of your definitions, you create these perspectives that love is not "mabait"
Angelica Sison: that's who you are
Angelica Sison: not love itself
ii13 illusion13: para sayo
Angelica Sison: para sa akin ba to?
ii13 illusion13: para sa iba. ganyan din ba sila magisip?
Angelica Sison: meron din
Angelica Sison: merong hindi
Angelica Sison: katulad mo
ii13 illusion13: then why bother convincing me na hndi love un?
Angelica Sison: i am stating what love is, i am not convincing you
Angelica Sison: may sinabi ba ako "wag.pahiwalaan mo ako. tama ako."?
ii13 illusion13: pinagpipilitan mo kasi na hndi love un. kaya tingin ko, convince na un. which is convince naman yta
Angelica Sison: paniwalaan*
ii13 illusion13: ciempre di mo cnabi literal
Angelica Sison: i am just saying what it is
Angelica Sison: tell me
ii13 illusion13: masmaganda kung sinabi mo. para sayo. iba2 naman tao eh
Angelica Sison: back to my earlier question
ii13 illusion13: i respect your opinion. ung mga gnun
Angelica Sison: what is the opposite of love?
ii13 illusion13: di ko nga alam
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: do you want to know what it is?
ii13 illusion13: indifference?
Angelica Sison: exactly
ii13 illusion13: un.
Angelica Sison: the state of unfeeling
Angelica Sison: love is a geniune feeling
Angelica Sison: tell me
Angelica Sison: what do love most?
Angelica Sison: and why?
ii13 illusion13: myself. malamang?
Angelica Sison: haha
Angelica Sison: see?
ii13 illusion13: bakit? cno bang tao hndi mahal sarili?
Angelica Sison: the most?
ii13 illusion13: ako nga.
Angelica Sison: hehe
Angelica Sison: do you think the world revolves around you?
Angelica Sison: do you think that you are superior above all?
ii13 illusion13: malamang hndi. bakit naman iisipin ng tao un dba?
ii13 illusion13: ano point mo?
Angelica Sison: my point is
Angelica Sison: you are not life's dictionary
ii13 illusion13: kaya?
Angelica Sison: stop defining everything
ii13 illusion13: then stop defining everything too.
Angelica Sison: i am not defining
ii13 illusion13: sinabi ko ba na gnun un? sinabi ko kanina bgo mag simula..
ii13 illusion13: "para sakin"
ii13 illusion13:
ii13 illusion13: wla akong cnabing gnun
Angelica Sison: haha
Angelica Sison: meron
Angelica Sison: "IMHO"
ii13 illusion13: in my opinion
Angelica Sison: yea
ii13 illusion13: kaya nga, para sakin lng.
ii13 illusion13: wla akong cnabing, sasaktan kayo nyan
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: sasaktan?
Angelica Sison: sino nasasaktan?
ii13 illusion13: oo. ng love.
Angelica Sison: haha
ii13 illusion13: wla naman akong sinabing ganto meaning neto dba? ikaw nagsbe ng gnun
Angelica Sison: kaw nagsabi nun
ii13 illusion13: na ganito love. na in general ganito
ii13 illusion13: kaya nga IMO eh
Angelica Sison: "in my opinion", "IMHO"
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: kaw yun
Angelica Sison: ireview mo uli
ii13 illusion13: hala. ako pa ba
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: ba ikaw nagsabi eh
ii13 illusion13: ikaw nagsabi ahh
Angelica Sison: wala akong sinasabi
Angelica Sison: i speak with the words from the Bible
ii13 illusion13: sabi mo, dont define emo.. tapos eto sabi mo.
ii13 illusion13: Angelica Sison: they're not emo
Angelica Sison: they're just "scene"
Angelica Sison: sunod sa uso para namang mga ulol
ii13: onga
Angelica Sison: real emo is totally different
Angelica Sison: i said totally different
Angelica Sison: i didnt really expand its meaning
ii13 illusion13: kaya nga. pero lumalabas na pinapalabas mo mali ung impression ko sa emo kasi ganto un..
ii13 illusion13: diba?
Angelica Sison: mali nga sila
Angelica Sison: ako b nagsabi originally?
ii13 illusion13: yeah. kasi sau ko lng narinig un.
Angelica Sison: i got it from a website duh-er
ii13 illusion13: ohh.
ii13 illusion13: bat ka naniniwala dun?
Angelica Sison: that's its original roots
Angelica Sison: back on topic
Angelica Sison: love ba for you is masakit?
Angelica Sison: oh wala na?
ii13 illusion13: tama lang.
Angelica Sison: na?
ii13 illusion13: na masakit
Angelica Sison: ok.
Angelica Sison: bakit?
ii13 illusion13: bkit? di ba normal un?
Angelica Sison: haha
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: normal nga siya
Angelica Sison: oh anong masama dun?
ii13 illusion13: sa love?
ii13 illusion13: madami
Angelica Sison: like?
ii13 illusion13: teka, may rreplyan lng ako. bka sabihin mo nag-iisip ako e
ii13 illusion13: like ano
Angelica Sison: haha
ii13 illusion13: from my experience
Angelica Sison: excuses
ii13 illusion13: edi cge
ii13 illusion13: bibilisan na po
ii13 illusion13: di ko na rreplyan
ii13 illusion13:
ii13 illusion13: ayun
ii13 illusion13: sa mga naexperience ko
ii13 illusion13: nung bata ako hnggang sa tumanda
ii13 illusion13: nung bata ako
Angelica Sison: yes?
ii13 illusion13: cyempre pag magllove ka ng ibang tao ng bata pa, immature pa un dba
Angelica Sison: yea. so?
ii13 illusion13: ayun. nung natuto ako maglove, dun lang ako naging masama
ii13 illusion13: swear
ii13 illusion13: totoo yan
ii13 illusion13: kasi para sakin
Angelica Sison: para sayo?
ii13 illusion13: ung love, ung gumawa sakin para mkapagisip ng kung anoano
ii13 illusion13: kasi kung hndi dumating ung love, di din dadating un dba?
ii13 illusion13: di ko naman sinisisi sa love. kasi totoo naman e, kung wla un, kung di ako natuto magmahal ng iba nung time na un
ii13 illusion13: di ako magaganun
Angelica Sison: ano yung "kung ano ano?"
ii13 illusion13: saan dyan?
ii13 illusion13: ayun
ii13 illusion13: like ano
ii13 illusion13: ng masama
Angelica Sison: ii13 illusion13: ung love, ung gumawa sakin para mkapagisip ng kung anoano
ii13 illusion13: naiisip ko na wlang god
ii13 illusion13: ung mga gnun
ii13 illusion13: na msama tao
ii13 illusion13: na traydor cia
ii13 illusion13: na ang sama nia
Angelica Sison: uhuh
ii13 illusion13: tinuruan nia ako mag judge
Angelica Sison: then?
Angelica Sison: ilabas mo na lahat
ii13 illusion13: un na yun
Angelica Sison: baka mamaya may sasabihin ka pa eh
Angelica Sison: oh ano?
Angelica Sison: wala na?
ii13 illusion13: yun na un
Angelica Sison: ok
Angelica Sison: wag kang sasabat
ii13 illusion13: cge
Angelica Sison: hindi ko ma-explain ng maayos
ii13 illusion13: cge2. go.
Angelica Sison: sumisingit ka eh
Angelica Sison: ok
Angelica Sison: you say that love makes you think things
Angelica Sison: that God isnt real
Angelica Sison: na traydor siya
Angelica Sison: na mala namang kwenta
Angelica Sison: money makes the world go round
Angelica Sison: di mo pa sinama ang sex para kumpleto na
Angelica Sison: ayun
Angelica Sison: thats what a complete wasted life would be
Angelica Sison: by wasted..
Angelica Sison: i dont mean na "uy bangag parang ewan."
ii13 illusion13: yeah i know
Angelica Sison: oops
Angelica Sison: wag kang sisingit
ii13 illusion13:
ii13 illusion13: cge go\
Angelica Sison: hindi ko rin ibig sabihin na ang wasted na buhay ay "uy. hindi siya nag-iisip, nagdadrugs, naglalasing, nagpapakapabaya."
Angelica Sison: pwede
Angelica Sison: pwede rin yun
ii13 illusion13: tpos ka na?
Angelica Sison: hindi pa
Angelica Sison: ok?
Angelica Sison: sasabihin ko kung tapos na ako
Angelica Sison: pero ang buhay ay wasted kapag "i feel sorry for him. he's blinded by life and all its circumstances. he's lost even if he's living a nice life coz he's burdened of of his own thinking."
Angelica Sison: you tend to focus on what negative things love gave you
Angelica Sison: yes, we get hurt
Angelica Sison: for what?
Angelica Sison: to learn
Angelica Sison: to learn what?
Angelica Sison: what you say? to become more mature.
Angelica Sison: to become a better person when we were scarred by experiences
Angelica Sison: yes, love may hurt
Angelica Sison: but it serves its purpose
Angelica Sison: so love is not all happy happy
Angelica Sison: because of free will
Angelica Sison: that person hurt you didnt she?
Angelica Sison: she chose to hurt you
Angelica Sison: you chose to take it as hurt
Angelica Sison: you hurt yourself
Angelica Sison: wait
Angelica Sison: dont speak
Angelica Sison: it was because you thought of it as "masakit"
Angelica Sison: but rather, you should think of it as
Angelica Sison: a learning experience
ii13 illusion13: katulad nung cnbe ko na tayo lang nagiisip na mabait to o hndi.
Angelica Sison: thanks to love
Angelica Sison: teka lang
Angelica Sison: thanks to love
Angelica Sison: natuto ka
Angelica Sison: lumaki ang pagkatao mo
Angelica Sison: vince, life is a matter of perspective
Angelica Sison: its either you complain because roses have thorns
Angelica Sison: or you rejoice because thorns have flowers
ii13 illusion13: natuto nga ako. ng mdme.
Angelica Sison: don't generalize all experinces of love as "masakit"
Angelica Sison: teka nga lang
Angelica Sison: quiet
ii13 illusion13: kasi un naman tlga naexperience ko sa lahat ng minahal ko eh.
ii13 illusion13: ok cge
Angelica Sison: so you learned what it was like to love
Angelica Sison: to get hurt
Angelica Sison: get up
Angelica Sison: free yourself from your broad thinking
Angelica Sison: just because you've been hurt a lot of time, doesnt mean theres no genuine love
Angelica Sison: times*
Angelica Sison: there is
Angelica Sison: there is love...
Angelica Sison: get up
Angelica Sison: get out from your prisoned thinking
Angelica Sison: get the guts to finally experience love without worrying whether you'd get hurt or not
Angelica Sison: thats life
Angelica Sison: everyone goes through that
Angelica Sison: stop complaing
Angelica Sison: complaining*
Angelica Sison: you think masakit na yun?
Angelica Sison: there are worse things
Angelica Sison: be thankful
Angelica Sison: kasi you're alive
Angelica Sison: still breathign
Angelica Sison: breathing*
Angelica Sison: be thankful na buhay ka pa, pwede ka pang magmahal
Angelica Sison: pwede ka pang mahalin
Angelica Sison: forget the past
Angelica Sison: today is today
Angelica Sison: everything's different from each other
Angelica Sison: like you and i
Angelica Sison: we have different views
Angelica Sison: but surely, we are not different in the eyes of God
ii13 illusion13: if i had died, i would have never felt sad at all
Angelica Sison: do you think that dying is the answer?
Angelica Sison: vince
Angelica Sison: all of us get sad
ii13 illusion13: para di mfeel un?
Angelica Sison: listen, all people in the world feel sad
Angelica Sison: we all feel sadness\
ii13 illusion13: pero grbe naman ung skn
Angelica Sison: are you sure?
ii13 illusion13: alam kong may masgrbe pa
ii13 illusion13: pero masyado pa akong bata nun para mfeel un
Angelica Sison: there are a lot of people starving out there and you're whining over heartbreaks
Angelica Sison: tsk
ii13 illusion13: ok lang sakin mag starve
Angelica Sison: yeah right
Angelica Sison: i'm not finished
ii13 illusion13: nwawala naman un pag nkakain ka
ii13 illusion13: eh emotionally? hndi basta basta nwawala un
Angelica Sison: stop ok?
ii13 illusion13: parang sugat na nagiiwan ng scar
Angelica Sison: i'm not finished
Angelica Sison: you're disrespecting
ii13 illusion13: cge go
Angelica Sison: why are you so focused on your hurt?
Angelica Sison: why dont you see the good things that had happened to you?
Angelica Sison: vince, i dont have to convince you
Angelica Sison: i have said what i wanted
Angelica Sison: its up to you if you wanna continue your torment
ii13 illusion13: blue_gellie_power: vince, i dont have to convince you
Angelica Sison: there are more things in life
ii13 illusion13: *want
Angelica Sison: well i didnt did i?
Angelica Sison: i just stated
ii13 illusion13: huh?
ii13 illusion13: oo nga. mali kse ung have
ii13 illusion13: ayun
ii13 illusion13: back sa topic
ii13 illusion13: pwde na ako magsalita?
Angelica Sison: ok
Angelica Sison: go ahead
ii13 illusion13: blue_gellie_power: why dont you see the good things that had happened to you? -------> bear with it, karamihan ng tao ganyan
Angelica Sison: i know
ii13 illusion13: ganyan naman tao diba..
ii13 illusion13: baka kasi
Angelica Sison: i am simply enlightening you
ii13 illusion13: baka cguro naffocus sa mga bad experience
ii13 illusion13: kasi masmarami ung pangit kesa maganda
ii13 illusion13: gnun sakin.
ii13 illusion13: ewn ko sa iba.
Angelica Sison: ano pa?
Angelica Sison: wala na?
ii13 illusion13: eto..
ii13 illusion13: blue_gellie_power: get the guts to finally experience love without worrying whether you'd get hurt or not
ii13 illusion13: nagawa ko na yan.
Angelica Sison: then why didnt you?
ii13 illusion13: nagawa ko yan.. last year..
Angelica Sison: then?
ii13 illusion13: kaya ngayon ganito na ako, kasi wla din. nsaktan lang ulit.
Angelica Sison: tanong ko background mo
Angelica Sison: pwede?
ii13 illusion13: sure.
Angelica Sison: where exactly do you live?
ii13 illusion13: alabang?
ii13 illusion13: bakit?
Angelica Sison: where in alabang?
ii13 illusion13: hills borough
Angelica Sison: where do you study?
ii13 illusion13: ipapa bless mo ko?
Angelica Sison: no
ii13 illusion13: pagdadasal?
Angelica Sison: sagutin mo lang
ii13 illusion13: csb
Angelica Sison: yes
Angelica Sison: do you wanted to study there?
Angelica Sison: did you choose your course?
ii13 illusion13: tama lang, wla naman kasi akong gs2ng school eh. kahit saan ok lang sakin.
ii13 illusion13: course ko? oo ako.
Angelica Sison: school mo?
ii13 illusion13: CSB nga
ii13 illusion13: college of saint benilde
Angelica Sison: uu nga
Angelica Sison: kaw pumili
Angelica Sison: ?
ii13 illusion13: oo
ii13 illusion13: oo ako
Angelica Sison: mga magulang mo?
Angelica Sison: andyan?
ii13 illusion13: yeah
Angelica Sison: ano kinain mo kanina?
ii13 illusion13: ano ba...
Angelica Sison: sagutin mo lang
ii13 illusion13: huling kinain dba?
ii13 illusion13: chicken
ii13 illusion13: na may mashed potato
Angelica Sison: may mga kaibigan ka?
Angelica Sison: oh?
ii13 illusion13: malamang
ii13 illusion13: mdme
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: ano ginagawa mo ngayon?
ii13 illusion13: YM
ii13 illusion13: soundtrip
ii13 illusion13: un lang
Angelica Sison: ok ok...
Angelica Sison: hindi ka ba thankful na may maganda kayong bahay?
Angelica Sison: searched hilss burough
Angelica Sison: on the net
ii13 illusion13: ahhh
ii13 illusion13: tama lang.
ii13 illusion13: wla naman ako paki sa bahay kung malaki o maliit eh
Angelica Sison: hindi ka thankful na nagaaral ka sa magandang eskwelahan?
Angelica Sison: hindi ka ba thankful na ikaw ang pumili ng school mo?
Angelica Sison: hindi ka ba thankful na ikaw pumili ng course mo?
Angelica Sison: hindi ka ba thankful na may mga kaibigan ka?
ii13 illusion13: tama lang.
ii13 illusion13: thankful sa kaibigan
Angelica Sison: hindi ka ba thankful na may kinain ka pa kanina
ii13 illusion13: thankful dn sa food
Angelica Sison: no you're not
Angelica Sison: ngayon lang
Angelica Sison: siguro
ii13 illusion13: thankful ako ah
ii13 illusion13: gutom na gutom na kasi ako nun
Angelica Sison: eh kanina nung kumakain ka?
ii13 illusion13: tpos wla ako mkain
ii13 illusion13: oo naman
Angelica Sison: hindi ka ba thankful na ikaw ang pumili ng school mo?
Angelica Sison: hindi ka ba thankful na ikaw pumili ng course mo?
ii13 illusion13: tama lang?
ii13 illusion13: ok lang naman kahit parents ko pumili eh.
Angelica Sison: edi masaya
Angelica Sison: oh eto
Angelica Sison: may kukwento ako sayo
Angelica Sison: pwede?
ii13 illusion13: masaya??
ii13 illusion13: cge cge
Angelica Sison: wag kang sisingit
Angelica Sison: pwede?
ii13 illusion13: okay cge.
Angelica Sison: Last 2005
Angelica Sison: i was like you
Angelica Sison: full of negativeness
Angelica Sison: full of bitterness
Angelica Sison: full of everything
Angelica Sison: i hated my parents
Angelica Sison: i hated people
Angelica Sison: i hated God
Angelica Sison: i hated my parents because i went to a school that i didnt waht. they transferred me
Angelica Sison: want*
Angelica Sison: i hated people, i became anti-social
Angelica Sison: i trusted a friend
Angelica Sison: she betrayed me
Angelica Sison: she hurt me
Angelica Sison: soon, the whole high school hated me
Angelica Sison: and i hated them back
Angelica Sison: i hated God because i blamed Him for what i was experiencing
Angelica Sison: i hated myself
Angelica Sison: my decisions, my thinking
Angelica Sison: everything
Angelica Sison: but...
Angelica Sison: (dont get "oh corny mo naman")
Angelica Sison: soon my mom
Angelica Sison: let me visit a "psychiatrist" weekly
Angelica Sison: a Christian counselor
Angelica Sison: at first
Angelica Sison: i loathed every moment just talking about God
Angelica Sison: i said "corny. hindi naman totoo si God. Where's your proof?"
Angelica Sison: i cursed Him for my being
Angelica Sison: but as time went by
Angelica Sison: after all the crying and shouting in between sessions
Angelica Sison: (yes, hindi talaga ako paniwala noon)
Angelica Sison: i was enlightened
Angelica Sison: i became aware of what life was
Angelica Sison: i was thankful for every bit of myself
Angelica Sison: my parents, a house, food, i s'm still studying
Angelica Sison: i'm*
Angelica Sison: i was focusing too much on what was bad
Angelica Sison: i failed to notice the good things God has given me
Angelica Sison: after all those senseless, drinking smoking, and often "cutting" of random body parts with a blade
Angelica Sison: i stopped
Angelica Sison: i looked at a more brighter side of life
Angelica Sison: and even if i still get hurt
Angelica Sison: i am happy
Angelica Sison: i am content
Angelica Sison: you should too
Angelica Sison: considering you're pretty lucky
Angelica Sison: life's full of wonders, too good to just see your "failures"
Angelica Sison: ok?
Angelica Sison: i am enlightening you
Angelica Sison: but if you still refuse my advices
Angelica Sison: thats ok
Angelica Sison: thats you
ii13 illusion13: blue_gellie_power: Last 2005
blue_gellie_power: i was like you
ii13 illusion13: di naman ako ganyan kgrbe..
Angelica Sison: see?
ii13 illusion13: kse sakin, love lang hate ko
Angelica Sison: you are lucky
Angelica Sison: yun lang ang naranasan ko
Angelica Sison: mo*
ii13 illusion13: pero ung sakin
Angelica Sison: wait
Angelica Sison: wag ka muna magasalita\
ii13 illusion13: wait
ii13 illusion13: eto lng
ii13 illusion13: eto lng
ii13 illusion13: blue_gellie_power: i failed to notice the good things God has given me
blue_gellie_power: after all those senseless, drinking smoking, and often "cutting" of random body parts with a blade
blue_gellie_power: i stopped
blue_gellie_power: i looked at a more brighter side of life
Angelica Sison: then?
ii13 illusion13: senseless ung drink and smoke para sau. na dahil kay God
ii13 illusion13: baliktad tayo..
Angelica Sison: ok...
ii13 illusion13: ako drink and partying ung nagpa enlighten sakin
ii13 illusion13: na dpat di masyado magconcentrate sa negative experiences
Angelica Sison: temporarily
ii13 illusion13: ayun..
ii13 illusion13: not
ii13 illusion13: hanggang ngaun
ii13 illusion13: 2yrs na
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: really?
ii13 illusion13: yeah
ii13 illusion13: un ung nagpapasaya sakin
Angelica Sison: eh bakit sabi mo hate mo love?
Angelica Sison: diba dapat nkalimutan mu na yun?\
ii13 illusion13: bakit? love ko ba un?
ii13 illusion13: Like
Angelica Sison: i am just helping you
Angelica Sison: kung ayaw mo ok lang
ii13 illusion13: ok lang naman sakin.
ii13 illusion13: hate ko ang love, kaya iniiwasan ko
Angelica Sison: ok
ii13 illusion13: pero hndi ko makakalimutan un
Angelica Sison: alam mo naman siguro inimply ko
ii13 illusion13: malabo
ii13 illusion13: yea alam ko
Angelica Sison: ok edi tapos na
Angelica Sison:
Angelica Sison: hindi lang naman love ang issue
Angelica Sison: alam mo na yun
Angelica Sison: i dont need to explain further
Angelica Sison: you just need faith to believe
Angelica Sison: ok
Angelica Sison: ?
ii13 illusion13: okay
Angelica Sison: ^_______^
Angelica Sison: thank you dahil nakinig ka
Angelica Sison: kahit opposite ang paniniwala mo
Angelica Sison: thank you kasi na-renew uli ang faith ko
Angelica Sison: by our conversation
ii13 illusion13: awwww
ii13 illusion13: ahahaha
ii13 illusion13: :_p
ii13 illusion13:
ii13 illusion13: blue_gellie_power: that person hurt you didnt she?
Angelica Sison: ?
ii13 illusion13: oo
ii13 illusion13: bornagain din cia
ii13 illusion13: mahilig din mag ^______^
Angelica Sison: ok
ii13 illusion13: yang nkkabwct na expression na yan. hahaha
ii13 illusion13:
ii13 illusion13: pati ung ano
Angelica Sison: ok
ii13 illusion13: ayun
ii13 illusion13: alam mo ba
ii13 illusion13: dba gnun ka nung 2005?
Angelica Sison: yeah
ii13 illusion13: anong yr mo nun>?
ii13 illusion13: 4th ba?
ii13 illusion13: o 3rd?
Angelica Sison: 3rd year?
Angelica Sison: yea
ii13 illusion13: ayun.
ii13 illusion13: 3rd yr dn ako..
ii13 illusion13: medyo gnun ako
ii13 illusion13: kaya naging satanist ak
ii13 illusion13: *ako
ii13 illusion13: kse naicp ko na wlang mgwa si God pagdating sa mga mssmang ngyre.
Angelica Sison: go on
ii13 illusion13: tgal ndn nun.
ii13 illusion13: dme ko pang kalokohan na natutunan nun, mga symbols, pentagram,
Angelica Sison: go on
ii13 illusion13: un lang.
ii13 illusion13: bsta.
ii13 illusion13: pag naaalala ko ung mga un nttwa nalang ako eh
ii13 illusion13: ang gago ko pla dte
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: then?
ii13 illusion13: na sinasabi ko na wlang god.. ung mga gnun
Angelica Sison: hehe
Angelica Sison: thanks for opening up
ii13 illusion13: konti pa lang na-open ko sayo. kung mlman mo lovelife ko.. maawa ka sakin. pero bihira ko lng un kwen2.
Angelica Sison: ok lang
Angelica Sison: at least diba?
Angelica Sison: ^____^
Angelica Sison: oh i forgot
ii13 illusion13: haha
ii13 illusion13: oh?
Angelica Sison: you hate that
Angelica Sison: sorry
ii13 illusion13: ahh
ii13 illusion13: hahaha
ii13 illusion13: ok lng
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: eto na lang
Angelica Sison: happy talaga ako nakachat kita
ii13 illusion13: ha?
ii13 illusion13: bakit naman?
ii13 illusion13: kasi may katulad ka pala?
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: part na rin yun
Angelica Sison: kasi na-challenge ako
ii13 illusion13: ahhhh
ii13 illusion13: hahahaha
Angelica Sison: saka nakapag share ako
Angelica Sison:
ii13 illusion13: bka nachallenge din ung nagcouncil sayo dte
ii13 illusion13: onga
Angelica Sison: sobra
Angelica Sison: thanks ah?
ii13 illusion13: hahah
ii13 illusion13: no prob
ii13 illusion13: thanks dn
Angelica Sison: no prob din
Angelica Sison: its my pleasure
Angelica Sison: ^_______^
ii13 illusion13:
Angelica Sison: oops
Angelica Sison: hehe
ii13 illusion13: hahaha
BUZZ!!!
ii13 illusion13: osha
ii13 illusion13: alis na ako
Angelica Sison: ok
ii13 illusion13: may ppuntahan pa akong debut
ii13 illusion13: cge cge
Angelica Sison: ok
Angelica Sison: take care
Angelica Sison: God bless
Angelica Sison: ^_______^
ii13 illusion13: slamat kw dn
ii13 illusion13: Godbless dn
ii13 illusion13 has signed out. (7/19/2008 6:14 PM)
And I think this is another triumph for God. :)
